My story...

...is probably very similar to yours.

...living a life that doesn't feel like your own.

Feeling trapped inside your own skin. Feeling stuck in a reality that you didn't think you would have chosen for yourself. Going through the motions but never really feeling like you're truly living.

For most of my life, I felt so disconnected from the world. I never felt like I fit in anywhere, like there was nowhere I could ever belong.

I didn't enjoy any aspect of my school experience from primary through to secondary school. I regularly found connecting with others an uphill battle and often felt like I was on the outside looking in.
I ended up changing so much about myself, inside and out, to try to fit in. To feel seen, heard, and understood. To feel liked and loved by someone, by anyone.

As I got older, I began to rely on drugs and alcohol to give me a perceived sense of confidence, to feel capable of connecting with others, to mask my deep sense of anxiety and insecurity about existing in the world.

I was lost and had no idea which direction to go in.

So I settled into the life I thought I was supposed to be living. I met someone. I was climbing the career ladder. Renting a 'proper' house. We got engaged. Got a dog. Got another dog. Started a dog training business.

And all the while it felt like I was living someone else's life. Like I was experiencing life in another persons body, in a reality that wasn't my own.

Until I started waking up.

Waking up to this gut feeling, an instinct, this deep sense of knowing that this wasn't me. This wasn't supposed to be my life. That I couldn't keep living in an existence that wasn't my truth anymore.

I realised I had a choice.
I got to choose how my life felt.
I got to choose the kind of life I existed in.

So I began choosing me.

Making decisions that aligned with the life I wanted to live. Learning how I truly wanted to exist in this world. Beginning to understand how I wanted to feel.

I began my journey of learning to know, love, and trust yourself.

In all honesty it felt lonely and isolating. Like stumbling around in the dark with no clear path forward. I wasn't just watching my entire world crumble around me, but I was an active participant in dismantling it.

And while so much of it was worth it, and it has helped me grow and become the person I am today, I wish I hadn't had to go through so much of it alone.

My purpose now is to share the knowledge and wisdom I have learnt and embodied over the past few years with you. I don't want to leave you stumbling in the dark not knowing which direction to turn.
I am here to shine a light on your true strength, your ability to forge your own path in this life, your ability to know, love and trust yourself.

Your ability to live a life you have always hoped could be possible for you.

Because it is possible. I am your living proof.

You get to choose to live a life you love.

A life where you know, love, and trust yourself.

And it can start right now.

When you decide to finally choose you.

So, what's next...

Firstly, it is so wonderful to have you here, and I am so excited to welcome you into my bubble of the internet (and world).

If you are here, it is most likely because you are seeking change or transformation in some way, big or small (or maybe you're just like me and like having a nosey at other people's websites!). Either way, you are here, and that is wonderful.

So, in this space, you will find an array of support systems that I have created to support you on your journey as much as possible, no matter where you currently are in life.

My desire from this space and all the spaces I create (online or in-person) is to help you come home to yourself. To guide you in your own self-exploration, rather than saying "well, I did this, and it worked for me, so it should work for you, here's a step-by-step guide to my path for you to follow". While that might be helpful for some, I have a feeling that if you are here, you are the kind of person who wishes to carve your own path, and my only wish is to help you with the tools to carve it and some support and celebration as you do.

It is my belief that we all have an inner knowing, sense of self, intuition, instinct, authentic self, whatever you want to call it, that has been snuffed out and suppressed by our modern existence. I genuinely wholeheartedly believe that if we all just focused on ourselves, on knowing, trusting and loving ourselves, on being our most authentic self, that we could completely change the world.

Because the conflicts we see and feel internally and externally are only created by focusing our attention outwards, by caring more about what is happening in the world around us ,than what we are experiencing within. What we see in the world around us is often a reflection or amplification on what is going on within us.

This is a reflection that gets magnified throughout different aspects of our life starting with your immediate reality (your health, your home space), to your work/family life and friendships, to the larger communities around you, and all the up to the entire collective of the world.

So, I want you to remember that you are not selfish for choosing yourself, because everything you do that prioritises you, has a ripple effect out into the rest of the world. And personally, I think that is magic ✨

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Matilda Kelsall

Know , Trust, & Love Yourself

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My story...

...is probably very similar to yours.