What's stopping you? What narrative or thought pattern is still holding you back?

Truth be told it took me 15 minutes of staring at the screen and almost shutting my laptop before I started actually writing this. All of those little thoughts trying to tell me that I don't have anything worthwhile to share, that no one is going to bother reading an email I send, and who do I think I am to start writing a blog?!

It would have been very easy to listen to those voices, to reluctantly agree and promise myself I would try again tomorrow.

But who does that serve? It doesn't serve the version of me that knows I have value to share with the world, it doesn't serve you, a wonderful soul on this earth who is reading this, and it certainly does not support me in building up my trust in myself.

So I stopped 'trying' and just started writing the feelings I was experiencing in the moment and here we are. I am writing my first blog post in this version of my existence in this world.

I am leaping into the unknown and trusting that there is value in this experience. Whether one person, twenty, or no one reads it there is value in the act of just doing it.

I have found that it is when we put less weight on the 'result' of something and more focus on the experience of it that we receive its true value. Because at the end of the day life is just one long experience and birth and death are the only true bookends of this existence.

As a society we like to have goals and markers in time to work towards, and whilst I feel that it definitely does have it's benefits, when we put too much emphasis on those individual moments we give them the power to dictate our experience.

I feel that when we are able to balance having moments to look forward to and feel excitement for, alongside recognising that those moments are just small aspects of all the different parts that make up our life, is when we are able to feel truly peaceful and content in life.

Because you know that even if those seemingly 'big' moments don't come to fruition, you will still feel satisfied and fulfilled because your value in yourself and this life is not built around those moments.

So, if you absorb one feeling from my words today I would love for it to be this, your life and experience always have value because you get to decide that it does.

Repeat after me...

"My life and experience on this earth always has value"

I appreciate you for experiencing me and my musings.

Much love,

Matilda